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Dragon05555
- Gamer
And i dont even know why. Sure, call it "teen angst", or whatever, but i think this is the saddest ive ever been in my entire life, and there's not even a legitimate reason why. I just feel like everything in my life is backwards.
I know that it's not, that my life is wonderful, in other countries, people are fighting to survive, but to be honest, im too goddamned selfish to care about anyone but myself.
I'm not going to lie anymore, i only have a few friends at school. They have tons of other friends, but none of their freidsn like me. I dont even ect that much differently from my friends.
Take that girl i like for example. She can at least tolerate me, if only because she's so freaking nice, but none of her friends will even talk to me or acknowledge i exist. I try to be nice to them, not even funny, just like a nice normal acting fellow and they just write me off and almost fucking avoid me.
I try not to let other people's opinions affect me, but how can i not when my choices are sit in a corner by myself, or maybe with one friend, who will invariably go sit with another eventually, stranding me, or i can just read books, like i did last year, silently blending in with the woodwork.
The more i think about it, the more sad i get.
Just about the only thing i can do right is play guitar, and blues at that, like some kind of goddamn sick joke or something. I dont even know why im typing this, no one will probably even reply anyway


